Sometimes I just wonder why we give love to someone who doesn’t even care about us। We try to give maximum of what we have and in turn what we get is the disappointment। I guess this is the unwritten law of the life… It shows how much we care for the people who are least bothered about us। It is not necessarily true that you don’t get anything from that person. That person also gives you some percentage of love and affection, but not to the fullest. They give you something or the other, but not the things you want. The never react in the way you want them to react. They never understand your emotions. They are concerned about their feelings. You try to make them more and more happy, but when you are sad, they never understand that. Why do we fall for such friends? Whenever they are down, you go out of the way to help them, and when you are sad, disappointed, down or upset, they seem to be normal. They enquire about your mood, but they never do or try to do something to make you feel good…There is nothing wrong in it, it’s just that they consider you as just a good friend, not more than that… But you consider them as your best pals, rather something more than that. You give everything you have, more than you have, but everything seem to be nothing, it just vanishes in thin air. It is like, you want them to be your best friends, but they just can’t. You can’t make someone love you, can you??? But meanwhile you go away from your best pals, someone who is already giving loads of love. You ignore them, sometimes fail to spend time with them and this affects your relation with them. This causes more and more pain. You lose what you have, and you run after the Mirage of some dreamy relation you want to have. You blindfold yourself for the love given by others. You just ignore others and this is not good for you. I know relations are like gambles. You never know when you will find a gem in your friends and some gems turn out to be worthless stones. This is the fact about the life. It’s really hard to find someone who will love you the way you love him/her… This is very subjective. One might feel he/she is giving more than expected, but the other person in the same relationship might feel that she/he has not got anything from their respective partners. We can’t have a mathematical formula for this. I guess it is better to keep giving others what you have. You should not close your eyes for others. Keep your eyes and mind open for the love you are receiving from the others. The best thing is let go all the expectations. This is the toughest thing in any relationship. You should think, who am I for this person? I mean, if he/she does not understand my normal mood swings, then why am I expecting these many things from him/her? Why the hell am I trying to gauge his/her moods, behavior? How does it make a difference? We go crazy and hurt others also. I don’t like this; still I do the same thing again and again. It is very hard to balance this act. I don’t know what I am writing. This might be all rubbish. I am just typing things that are coming in my mind. It is all chaos. I have done so many mistakes in my past life. I have given so much love to many people, friends who don’t even deserve to be loved…We waste our life following the mirage of relations. We keep on expecting that this person will start understanding me, he/she will give me whatever I am expecting. It is not like Hindi movies, “Happies Endings”… film baki rheti hai, par humare lie nahi... Coincidences never take place in our life.
In a nutshell I can say that we always bet our money on wrong horse, at least in case of relations…
